Is it weird that I’ve been dreaming about her? I mean like… every night. It’s bad enough that I can’t sleep in my own bed, now I wake up with this distorted sense of reality. It makes me wonder if love really always prevails in the end. Did you know that in Chinese movies, the [...]
I wonder
I wonder sometimes if she loves me deep inside her somewhere. Maybe there’s just a little cache left that I haven’t completely demolished. I find myself praying for that piece. I called her this morning, against the wishes of half the people I know… Nobody wants to see me with her except maybe Anna and [...]
Par-tay
Thanks for everyone who showed up and celebrated my birthday however dull and inconvenient it was. Let’s see… even though you guys complained the entire car ride there, thanks to Emily and Caroline for the twenty dollars in change they “scrounged”. Thanks for bailing on us to go eat at Chili’s lol. Um, oh thanks [...]
I now pronounce you…
I went and saw I Now Pronounce You Chuck & Larry today with Chelsea Crowson, omfg she’s so much awesomer than you. Haha. It wasn’t that bad of a movie. Most of the time I was wondering to myself whether or not I should find it offensive or not, but then again, Brooks and I [...]
I’ll Wait
You know what? I’m going to tell you all now, and this is how it’s going to be okay? It’s eight in the morning and I haven’t slept all night. I’m glad everyone’s trying to support me and trying to help me out with “getting over” her. I don’t want to “get over” her. I’m [...]
Wishlist
You know since it’s another year tacked onto my life, I thought I’d feel older, but I feel younger. More naive. My head’s splitting apart. I’ve been trying to not be materialistic, but I am. What I want for my birthday, I can’t have, so I want something to occupy my time.
I’ve been looking at [...]
Two Codies and an X
Apollo somehow hooked up with me again on his way to College Station for a run, and convinced me to take some C’s and on his way back he gave me some more and a hit of X. My friend’s helping me out with the rest of the C’s. He’s stuck through me since middle [...]
The Cap’n
Mmm-mmm that Cody sure takes good care of me.
I was told I had gotten fat. Is this true?
Vicissitude
You know in the past three days that it’s really hit home, I’ve gotten to realized how different I’ve actually become. I’m learning now how much I dislike myself and that’s really hard to deal with in a sense. I’d like to be all eloquent and say something profound, but frankly, I don’t think I [...]
